Focus

“It’s happening. Everybody stay calm…” – if you know, you know.

This past week, my concentration dipped and my motivation seeped out of me. I became a shell of my usual self. I’ve slipped into habits of watching films daily (I watched three on Wednesday), courtesy of Letterboxd and Netflix Party. I even watch walkthroughs of games that I can’t afford. I try to study and work on assignments but I have come to the conclusion that I’ve lost focus.

I’m not one-hundred percent sure about my website idea for technical writing that I mentioned in my last post. I feel as if I have no clear reason to motivate myself currently, even though I have so many assignments to do.

It certainly is not a fun feeling – you know you should be doing work, yet, you never do. You sift through every other possibility before landing at work. That’s not to say I haven’t been attending the online lectures. I have, but I’m only ever there in spirit. I can’t pay attention to it. It seems impossible. I get bored too quickly. I’m even boring myself writing this.

One positive was technical writing’s online discussions. Their format was superior to online lectures. Certainly beats the 9am lectures. They’re like watching a Transformers movie for the story – it’s dull, I don’t know why anyone would bother.

Hopefully I can realign my focus next week but I don’t get the feeling that there will be a difference. It may very well become an endless loop of procrastination, pain and Netflix.

“Oh Irene, won’t that be the day”

Also, wash your hands, don’t be dumb. Stay safe.